Friend, I am exhausted.
I'm so tired of striving. Tired of sinning. Tired of living as a slave to how I think others perceive me. (Which is a pointless exercise, by the way.) Tired of the thousands of people I deal with every day at work. Just tired.
And I bet you are too.
If you, like me, are trying to tick off a dozen little boxes and accomplish 762 things at once, I see you.
The thing is... I was afraid to rest. Afraid that if I rested, I would run out of time to do what I needed to do. "I'll rest when I'm done," I thought, "I just don't have time to rest right now. There's too much to get done."
Well honey, let me tell you! Was I ever wrong. Because now here I am, my first thought in the morning something along the lines of...
"Lord help me stay awake at work today."
Or better...
"Lord help me not punch anyone at work today."
Just kidding. But kind of.....
Seasons come and go.
In some seasons I "fake rested" because I was afraid to truly rest. In some seasons, I just kept running, as if maybe I will be the one exception on this planet, and perhaps maybe I'll get by without resting. In some seasons, I have to spend 10 hours a day at work. In those seasons, the to-do lists stack up. The feelings of failure gnaw away at my heart. And the last thing I have time for is a nap. But friend, I need a nap. No phone, some fresh air, and a glass of iced tea sounds like an absolute slice of heaven right now.
I know it's hard. Trust me, I don't have time to rest either. But we need to. Don't worry about developing a rhythm of Sabbath yet. You don't need another thing on your to-do list to accomplish. But you'll get there, don't worry. Soon you'll delight in rest. I promise.
I'll leave you with a quote that I love from the wonderful ladies at She Reads Truth,
"Cling to Jesus and do the next best thing."
And if you’re tired of failing, here’s a verse to rest your heart.
“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:9
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